I feel waterlogged! On many levels. I miss a few people that I enjoyed watching from afar on Facebook. I have absolutely NO way to get on the site and it's a bit maddening. We are interviewing potential roommates and I can't just go do a Facebook check to see how they live. I have to ask questions, do screening and let my instincts go to work. Its a good exercise. It made me mindful of the kind of information that exists in the digital world about any of us and how accessible it is. I really should have gone into business with my father, I am a good investigator.
I remember being a teenager and my cousins always doing a drive by on their exboyfriends' houses whenever they were in the neighborhood. At the time I never knew what they were looking for in those trips. Having to research a potential roommate is kind of like that old school crazy girl stalking my cousins used to do.
Today I have officially been juicing for one week. Almost as if to celebrate, a flurry of emails came my way and a phone call from my cousin, whom I miss and adore. I got some good news, that I will be going to the Childrens Miracle Network Celebration this fall just before our annual Radiothon. I wanted to Facebook about it and had a frustrating little moment when I couldn't. I wrote this morning and wanted to Facebook the post on my poetry blog so friends could read the new piece and I could not do that either.
I am delighted that two of my favorite women have decided to make changes to how they eat after seeing me commit to something like a 60 day fast. Today was the first day in a long time I felt like myself. Hopeful energy coursed through me and I got a lot accomplished during the day. I know my body is moving more and easier and it feels good. I feel my sadness sloughing off each day. Having more time to myself and to my responsibilities and goals has allowed me to reconnect to the power that fuels me. I felt like I really got some good things done. I have more time and I have less grief. I still find myself getting a little lost in ideas but I am anchoring in familiar places with people who know how to ground me and focus my lasers. I exhaled.
I have consumed so much water today I think I'll be swimming in dreams tonight. And I made the most delicious soup and juice today. The soup is a spicy cajun veggie and was so tasty and filling. The juice was made from beets, grapefruit, lemon, ginger, oranges and green apples. It was like a glass of dessert. And the sun was shining! Blue skies and no clouds at all. It feels like it's been so long since I've seen sunlight. Growing up a sunny California kid spoiled me into thinking it's summer all year long.
Today I feel good. And I was good to myself. I hope you were too.